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For Linda:

Find a new damn humor site.

ME--THE BORING STUFF
Full Name: Lauren Elizabeth Deans
What does your name mean? “Lauren” is derived from the laurel tree, representing victory, so it means just that. Victory!
Nickname: Luolian, Luo
What's the dumbest/meanest nickname someone has ever given you? I don’t pick up enough nicknames to know
DOB: Friday, April 5, 1985. Good Friday, as it turns out. It does not make me Jesus, however.
Birthplace: Visalia, California: 3 worst air in the US, behind LA and Bakersfield, my hometown.
Zodiac Aires, the ram. It means I’m firey, passionate and stubborn, I think
Siblings & Their Ages: Paul, 13. Susan, 10
Pets & Their Names: Well, you asked… Cats: Chester, Merry, Cassandra, Harrison, Eva. The good doggie Lucy. Bird: Elliot.
Any accent?: I have a tad of a Southern accent, but you can tell unless you are from somewhere with a different accent, apparently. (Like New York, for example)
Jobs: I worked at the beach for a few weeks last summer.
Car: Bright red 1993 Toyota Carolla. It’s my baby.
Dream Car: One with a chauffeur
Do you like the neighborhood you live in? I like it a lot. it’s pretty
Do you have your own phone line? I used to, but it doesn’t bother me that I don’t because I don’t use the phone too much. And my parents don’t bug me when I do, so we’re straight.
What are the last four digits of your phone number? What? Yeah *right*
Sex: Is this a proposition from a survey?!
Height: 5’6”
Eyes: green, and naturally so.
Hair: Barbie blonde
Piercings: only ears. I used to have second holes, but they grew in.
What is your shoe size? 8 and a half
Do you wear contacts? Yup.
How would you describe your fashion sense? What fashion sense? Well, that’s not true. Flip flops, Sketchers sneakers, shirts with collars, slutty tank tops, skirts… natural fabrics, bright semi-matching colors.
What color do you wear the most? Pink, blue, light yellow
Do you consider yourself handsome/beautiful? Every now and then, almost. The rest of the time, not really.

ME--MORE PERSON-ALLY/ITY ORIENTED
Do you have any good luck charms or rituals? Sure.
Do you have any obsessions? Yes, I must have cereal in the morning or someone will *die*!!!!!
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? No, but Totoro is waiting on my bookshelf
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I wish I needed less sleep. I could get so much more done. That and a nice body.
People say you're: Um, I don’t know… guy, help me out here!
Things You Collect: Laundry, but not on purpose.
Things you Hate to do: get up in the morning, any kind of work, drive
Things you like to do: dance, listen to music, art, sing (too bad I suck at it!), bond with people
What cartoon character do you most relate to? Haruhara Haruko
Where I shop the most: Um… beats me. Lots of places
Words Or Phrases You Overuse: all qualifiers.
A Non-Sport Game At Which You Excel: Bust a Groove
A Non-Sport Game Which You Enjoy: Ditto
Little-Known Talent You Possess: I’m a fucking *phychic*, baby!
FRIENDS
Character Traits You Look For Most In A Person: A sense of humor, the ability to see the bad side of something without hating it, maturity coupled with the ability to be silly, a taste for obscene randomness.
Funniest People You Know: Steve, Chandler, Phil (naifu de tataku!)
Who do you admire most? Eunice.
Who makes fun of you the most? Umm…

ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX
Honestly, what do you notice first? Face, of course. Takes the last amount of time to judge. Well, most of the time. And now that I think about it, my opinions usually change over time.
What's the nicest thing you find about the opposite sex? Aw, man, I love guys, so it’s hard to say. Guys say what they are thinking, they don’t ever complain about how fat they are, they’re so damn cute! Also, I think guys are more naturally cool then girls.
Thing you hate most about them? Their immaturity and their obsession with sports. And they stare too much.
Are you too shy to ask somebody out? Most of the time. I don’t like to put people on the spot and I don’t want to guilt trip anyone into going out with me. Yeah, and that whole self esteem thing.

SCHOOL
Schools: Little People Preschool, St. James, Poe, Hunter, Carnage, Enloe
Special Awards You've Won: Various art awards, lotsa dance competitions, I got a debate award in middle school, my scholarship to go to Japan
Have you taken the SAT (or PSAT)? No way, I’m not telling until I’m happy with them, and that is not quite yet. Well, I got an 1100 in the 7th grade.
What is the name of the weirdest, strangest, or craziest teacher you've ever had (not including subs)? I’m going to go with, um… Ms. Mayo. She was awesome, though

PAST
How many concerts I've attended: …none. Honestly.
How many countries I've been to: US, England, Canada, Mexico, Japan.
Most romantic thing that's ever happened to me: Hehe, I’m not telling this one.
Name a movie that you've cried at: Can’t think of one off the top of my head.
Scariest Thing You've Ever Done: I walked out into the street in front of a bus when I was little.
What is the worst sickness you ever had? That goddamn walking pneumonia that I had this year that lasted 4 months
What is the worst thing you did that got you grounded? I don’t get grounded.
What's the latest you've ever stayed out? I didn’t go home after prom.
Are the last 2 items related? No. I was good prom night.
What's your oldest memory that is still vivid to you? Dancing around on the deck at my grandparents house. I was probably about 3, because my Grandma was alive and not in the hospital yet.
What was the best gift ever given to you? The sapphire necklace my aunt gave me.
When was your worst school picture taken? Probably the 4th and 5th grade because I had these dumb hats on…I liked it at the time and my mom thought it was cute.
Who was your first crush? Joshua…also my first boyfriend. I named one of my dolls after him. I still have Baby Joshua somewhere
RIGHT NOW KIND OF QUESTIONS
How are you today? Well, I was in a wonderful mood until my mom yelled at me for not doing anything I wasn’t ordered to do. Hey, I cleaned the house, did my chores, and cleaned my room. That’s enough for one day! And why doesn’t studying count as doing something? Huh?
How's the weather right now? Pretty and warm
In And Around The CD Player: The Fugees, lamb, Moulin Rouge
Last person you talked to? My mom
Who is right next to you? I’m alone at my computer, in my bed.
What color are your pants? I’m not wearing pants. Really. Do you want to know what color my underwear is?
What is the last thing you said? “ok” to whatever demands/threats my mom made
What kind of Clothes do you sleep in: shirt and underwear. PJ pants or boxers if it’s cold.
What mood are you in right now? Kind of grumpy
What song are you listening to right now? Haha, you don’t want to know. Trust me. It’s some goofy Euro-pop, that’s all I’ll say.
What time is it? 7:49 p.m. Eastern Daylight Time
What was the last thing you ate? Spaghetti
When was the last time you showered? Yesterday night, but I’m about to again
What did you do last night? Tried to catch up on sleep

THE FUTURE
Do you think you will ever be famous? Proably not.
Future Goals: Happiness, in whatever form it may come
What are 2 things you want to do before you finish high school? Finally learn to disciple myself. Learn to sing well.
What will your first son's name be? I’d have to talk it over with my husband
First daughter? see above
What You Want To Be: Happy
When you're 18, will you buy a pack of smokes because you can? Why waste the money?
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? Hawaii, Japan
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? Either Leigh, Peter, or Siavash… I haven’t decided yet.
RANDOMNESS
Do you have a lava lamp? Yes, three. And a discoball
Do you have a "secret box"? Well, yeah, but it’s full of things that I forgot to give back to people, things I forgot to do, and other objects of guilt.
How do you eat an Oreo? Bite into it. I didn’t like them until recently anyway.
How would you spend a million dollars: College
If you could change your name, what would it be? Lauren is just fine.
If you were a ceral, which one would you be? Life. You wouldn’t think it is as great as it is.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Hot pink
What I'm Addicted to: Cereal, the internet, hugs
What I could never live without: Laughter. I hear most adults don’t even laugh daily. That’s horrible. I need to laugh at least 10 times a day!
COMPUTER STUFF
Do you save emails? Yup.
How many buddies do you have on your list right now? I’m not about to count
What is your desk made of? My thigh.
HAVE YOU EVER
Been in a car accident?: No.
Been on Stage?: Many, many times. It’s great!
Broken a bone? Nope.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: I told you, I just started liking them, and even now they aren’t that great. Who made this survey, Nabisco?
Eaten Sushi?: Yes, and have made it myself too.
Had cosmetic surgery? Because most 17 year olds have, haven’t they?
Hiked a Mountain?: Well, I’ve been hiking on a mountain, but not to the top.
Made a Lenten sacrifice? What? Oh… for Lent? No.
Made homemade cookies?: Of course, but now I leave that to my sis, she is better then me.
Moved? 3 times. Once across the country when I was 2, once across the neighborhood when I was 15. That was the one that messed me up.
Seen the White House?: Yeah.
Skinny dipped? No, but I wouldn’t put it past me.
Watched the Smurfs?: Yeah, but not on a regular basis.
Been called a Smurf?: Are you insinuating something?
Witnessed a crime? Yeah, I guess so.
DO YOU...
do drugs? Do not.
drink? With my family, mainly, but not regularly. Only on special occasions.
smoke? Eww… smoking sucks!
currently like/love someone? Well, I think not anymore. Wait, well I guess I like a couple of people, but nothing serious.
have lots of friends? My friends are awesome! Who needs a number?
Like jewelry?: Yeah, but always in moderation.
Like to dance? Assuming the atmosphere is right, then YEAH!
Like to take walks in the rain? In a light, warm rain at a time I don’t mind getting wet. Which means rarely.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
God? Not a sentient one, at any rate
Heaven? No, but I wish there was one. And angels too. Well, some people are like angels, but they aren’t supernatural or anything.
Luck? Not really.
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
the Florida re-count? It was interesting to watch. But other then that, who cares?
FAVOURITES
Actor/Actress: It depends on the movie. Well, ok, Ewan McGreggor.
Alcoholic Beverage: Hard lemonade…hehe
Animal: peacock
Animated movie? Tonari no Totoro!
Book: All the David Sedaris books. He’s the man!
Book that you were required to read for school? Where the Red Fern Grows
Candy: Reese’s
CD? Whatever my new mix is.
Color: Light pink, dark purple, yellow
Concert: I told you… haven’t been
Country singer/artist? Um, Patsy Cline. I used to listen to her when I was very small and misunderstood all of the songs.
Day: Friday
Disney character: Belle
Do I believe in aliens?: Eh.. I don’t know. I’m sure they exist, but far, far away.
Drink? Water
Flower: Roses, but I like flowers in general
Food: Pizza, cereal
Girl's perfume? I’m not really into perfume
Holiday: Christmas.
How much $$$ I have in my pocket: Hahahahaha… money? The day after Animazement? 7 dollars and some change.
Ice cream: Strawberry, chocolate chip cookie dough
Kind of m & m? I’m with Leigh on this one. Peanut butter is where it’s at!
Least Fave Food: Goya (it’s Okinawan)
Magazine: Vanity Fair
Men's cologne? Woods (you know, what Abercrombie smells like)
Movies: Moulin Rouge, It, The Bad Seed, other stuff too…
Month(s): April through July
Music: Some of everything
Pair of Jeans: My dark blue ones, but I have 2 pairs that are the same, so they count as one
Phobias: spiders, nuclear weapons
Quote: “I don’t need no stinkin’ quote” -Me, just now
Quote from a movie: “The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.” -Moulin Rouge
Restaurant: Mellow Mushroom… the calzones…ummmmm
Salad dressing: Italian
Sesame Street Character: The aliens. You know! “Yep yep yep yep yep yep…” Otherwise, the two headed monster or cookie monster
Shoes: flip flops.
Socks: the cute ones *I* got in Japan
Song That Couldn't Be Improved Upon: Gabriel, lamb. It’s my philosophy.
Sport(s): soccer
Sport to watch: soccer
Store: whatever!
Subject: Usually science, art
Thing To Do In The Fall: wait for it to get warm again
Thing To Do In The Summer: go to the pool
Thing To Do In The Winter: have snow days
Toothpaste: Aquafresh
TV Show: The Daily Show.
TV show that was made before you were born? Get Smart
Vacationing Spot: Hawaii, Japan
Video Game: Atari: Raiders of the Lost Ark. NES: Tetris. 64: Zelda. PC: The 7th Guest. Playstation: Bust a Groove, Chrono Cross
Website: http://www.luolian.bravepages.com

EITHER/OR
AC or Windows Down: AC. I don’t like the wind in (read: fucking up) my hair.
Backstreet Boys or N*Sync?
Baths or showers? Showers, mostly
Bold or Italics? Astricks. Like *this*
Bridges or Tunnels: Tunnels. You can’t make a wish on a bridge.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cold or Hot: Hot. I’m am always miserable if I’m even a little bit cold, whereas I can withstand heat pretty well. Plus there’s the whole nipple thing.
Colorful or Dull? Colorful, almost always!
Croutons or Bacon Bits: Let’s see, stale bread crumbs or meat chunks in my salad?
Half full or half empty? 100% too big.
Hugs or Kisses? Well, you can’t put it like that. Hugs are great because you can give them to almost everybody and spreading the love is always a good thing. Kissing is intimate in nature and has a different meaning all together.
Leno or Letterman? Neither! Jon Stewart all the way, baby!
Loud or Shy: Loud. VERY LOUD!!!!!!
Night or day? Either one. Their pros and cons cancel each other out.
On the phone or in person? In person
One pillow or two? 4 also.
Pools or hot tubs? Pool because you can’t move around in a hot tub.
Rose or Daisy: Roses!
Scary or happy movies? Happy, scary movies are usually lacking in plot.
Skydiving or Bungee Jumping: Uh, bungee jumping seems less dangerous…
Spring or Fall: Spring!!!!!!!! Warm weather’s here and school’s almost out.
Subway or McDonald's? Subway, of course! Can’t get a BMT at McDonalds. Plus there’s no pedophile-ish Ronald statue at the playground.
Rain or Snow: Snow… no school.
TV or radio? The radio sucks. I’d pick most thing over the radio. Well, maybe not a chasity belt. Those things can be itchy.
TV or reading? Reading; it’s portable.
Wool or Cotton: Cotton wool. “You could stay here/ make your home here/ hide away here/ I could wrap you up in cotton wool…” Sorry. Cotton.

WORD ASSOCIATION
Blue: ball
Book: spine
Cloud: wisp
Cry: *tear*
Happy: big tooth grin
Hay: hey yourself!
Merry: cat
Paper: cut
Rock: and roll
Wet: puddle

Wow, Animazement was so much fun! Of course it was crawling with nasty, scary, dorky losers, but you have to get past all of that. Ok, that can be difficult, I understand, but once you it was a blast. I one went to one panal outside Cosplay and the Music Video Contest (you almost have to go to those), spending many hours parked in the video room. Lot's of good stuff to see. I was very proud of myself, too... I watched 9 episodes of Lodoss War with a fever before going to bed at four a.m. I think that was a feat. And yeah, I was sick Friday, couldn't talk Saturday, but I think I'm better now.

The dance was the best, wasn't it Siavash? We all hooked up with a group of guys from Millbrook who were *awesome* dancers and dances from 12 until 3 (at night, of course!) And they were cute, too! Really, it was so much fun. At least 100 times better then prom. We danced our asses off... seriously, I no longer have a butt. It's gone. *tear* Siavash discovered that he loves dancing and Jessie looked like a school girl gone wild... in a good way. And me? Well, I got my groove on, as they say. Hehe...

Lin, you have all of Yu Yu Hakusho, don't you? Did you tell me that it goes downhill after the first few eps, or am I remembering that wrong? I got WeiB Kruez (Imagine that character is right) and have watched it already. Siavash, you will want to borrow it from me, I promise. You'll like it. Got SMJ too, but I haven't watched it yet.

Lots of other stuff happened, but I'm too tired to get into it all here... so... sleepy

My point: It was fun. You should go next year. All of you.

sooo trahesed ... damnit, my cufew's too early .... glad none of the coordinators found me drunk ... hahahaha, derek, your parties rock. orchestra is almost worth it to have thses parties aftewards.

If you guys want to see some pics from school, I updated my webpage. Look in the photo and the pals sections.

Go there to see the best picture of Leigh that exists, as well as Jessie looking just beautiful. And thanks for taking some other great picture, Leigh! You're the man.

uggh ... i can't believe i'm caving into the evilness that is this insanely long survey ... but here goes. i've got a ton of homework that needs to be done so it's normal to think that i'd do this ...
ME--THE BORING STUFF
Full Name: nerri yamamoto
What does your name mean? nerri has no meaning ... let's not get into the whole "well you should make up a meaning for your name!" discussion, and yamamoto means "of the mountains"
Nickname: nen nen chan, nair nair, nair nair yammers, nerrmoto, other stuff ...
What's the dumbest/meanest nickname someone has ever given you? like i'd ever tell you that? the above are bad enough!
DOB: 8/20/85 ... yeah, yeah, i'm the baby
Birthplace: raleigh ... i'm not proud of it, i'm really not!!
Zodiac leo! and leos rock so much! we're greedy and always want the limelight ... woot! ... wait, i shouldn't be proud of that should i?
Siblings & Their Ages: um ... let's see here ... one sister, age 15, 3 brothers, ages 12, 8 and 5
Pets & Their Names: cat named courtney ... it's a boy not a girl!!
Any accent?: apparently a california valley girl accent that i'm just beginning to realize i have. yeah, i've really gotta work on that ...
Jobs: well, i worked at the university library for a while (dh hill does *not* suck even if nc state itself does!) but nothing right now ... damn, gotta remember to call student activites about getting a job here on campus next year though ...
Car: hah, i wish
Dream Car: silver miata, black convertible top, hot sound system and room enough to seat me, and if i want, my cello ...
Do you like the neighborhood you live in? yeah, the people have lived here forever and it's a lot of old people (quiet) but there are a smattering of young guys my brother's age (uggh, shut up!! *tears hear out*) who make life pretty much unbearable ...
Do you have your own phone line? i wish? does the dorm room number count? wait, no, i share that w/ carrie
What are the last four digits of your phone number? ahahahaha, wait, were you being serious?
Sex: if you're takeshi, sean biggerstaff, christian haydensen (wait, do i have a thing for blonds now or something?), jude law, val kilmer ... or anyone hot, yes please, come do me now!!
Height: 5'1" yeah, yeah, IF I HEAR ONE MORE MIDGET COMMENT!!! ...
Eyes: boooring, brown
Hair: beautiful luscious silky dark and oh-so-asian hair ... wait, no, it's dark brown w/ auburn highlights in the summer, and it's boring boring boring bad bad bad
Piercings: ears (do you think i should get second holes?) definitely not cartelidges though
What is your shoe size? hahahaha, let's see now ... ranges from 3.5 at the smallest to 6.5 at the largest, but usually around a 5 or 5.5
Do you wear contacts? nope (ohdeargoddon'tletmymommakemegogetreadingglassesnononononono...)
How would you describe your fashion sense? depends on the day, really, from the rattiest sweats i own to bra and underwear around the house (when i'm alone and the shades are pulled you freaks, don't bring the cameras!) but usually just something cute and easy to do stuff in (no, not like that you perves)
What color do you wear the most? blue purple gray black white ... pretty much anything pastel or gray/black/white, that and denim
Do you consider yourself handsome/beautiful? *cracks up and can't stop laughing* ... half an hour later *wipes tears from eyes, rereads questions, and starts to hiccup from laughing to hard* oh *gasp* wait *hiccup* you were being serious?? *laughing cramps*

ME--MORE PERSON-ALLY/ITY ORIENTED
Do you have any good luck charms or rituals? hello, everyone, don't miss the wishing hour!! 11:11!!
Do you have any obsessions? um ... does collecting pictures of certain hotties count?
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? my cow, my elephant, and my leopard
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? one thing? geez, that's hard, there are so many ... possibly to stop being so damned selfish all the time, but that's fun, so i'll just have to stick w/ being more open/extroverted/friendly
People say you're: cute (does *everyone* think i look like an anime character??), funny (um, coz i'm so stupid or something?), small/tiny (thanks lin lin, you're probably the one that points that out the most often!)
Things You Collect: um ... well, i've got like 4 huge boxes of stuffed animals stowed away at home, but that's not relaly a collection ... like i said before, pictures of my hotties?
Things you Hate to do: homework, housework, yardwork (wait, i don't really do yardwork ...), and um ... lots of things, really
Things you like to do: so many things ... read a really really good book, talk/hang out with friends, play a really awesome chamber music piece w/ really great musicians ... make out w/ a good kisser ...(hahahahah)
What cartoon character do you most relate to? naru from lovehina ... bad, but tolerable
Where I shop the most: victoria's secret!! and ... um ... the body shop (the soap place, not the clothes place) and everytime i go into that store i *have* to buy something
Words Or Phrases You Overuse: "like" (i'm trying to stop!!) "..." (even though it's not a word/phrase) "*lol*" (yeah, si, i'm sorry, i know it blinds you to see that) "blah de blah de blah" (yeah, smack me when i say that please?)
A Non-Sport Game At Which You Excel: that slaps game, yeah, you know what i'm talking about ...
A Non-Sport Game Which You Enjoy: gotta go w/ lin on this one: taboo
Little-Known Talent You Possess: talent? TALENT?? TALENT???


FRIENDS
Character Traits You Look For Most In A Person: are they funny? can they argue w/ me for hours on end? can they keep my incredibly short attention span?
Funniest People You Know: leon (not the one at enloe ... ), jake (also not the one at enloe, at least, not anymore), and then all the really really stupid people that are endlessly amusing to laugh *at*
Who do you admire most? oh wow, that's hard ... hm ... get back to me on that one
Who makes fun of you the most? lin lin (thank you, you started it all), lizzy (oh shut it little girl *winks*), joseph ("you know i love you nerri!!")


ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX
Honestly, what do you notice first? i'd have to say that i look at whether or not they're attractive ... but i have a rather skewed sense of what's attractive and what's not. after all, i think my history teacher's a cutie and most people give me a very odd look and edge away from me when i tell them so *lol* oftentimes though, what really catches my attention is someone who's funny (hell, you can hear them or the people they're entertaining from a mile away) because they've distracted me and then kept my attention
What's the nicest thing you find about the opposite sex? um ... digging into their minds and figuring out how they work and realizing completely different sides to their personalities (like how they really can be sweet, and are willing to be sappy around you ... although there are those guys that just can't give up that damned macho act)
Thing you hate most about them? brickheadedness, obsession w/ certain parts of the female body instead of the overall package, for liking the typically fair haired beauties
Are you too shy to ask somebody out? eh ... depends, if i get desperate enough (ie: looks like the other person won't be doing anything anytime soon because he's even more shy than i am and there aren't enough people to convince him to do something)


SCHOOL
Schools: nathan hale, ab combs, ligon middle, enloe high, ncsa
Special Awards You've Won: um ... random stuff, lotsa music awards, the one i least appreciated had to have been the most improved from TYP for moving from 7th/8th chair to 3rd chair ... placed something in the american jhs math exam, don't ask me how, i think it was blind luck, another random award in 7th grade w/ jenny for being jenny bo bo and nerri mo mo (the twins, don't ask)
Have you taken the SAT (or PSAT)? ahahahahah, like i'd post my scores here ... sat's in 7th and april 02 (again in june =p), psat's in 9th and 10th
What is the name of the weirdest, strangest, or craziest teacher you've ever had (not including subs)? pfeff, ms. brooks (not weird, just awesome)


PAST
How many concerts I've attended: a bunch ... and i'm still mad that i missed the lifehouse, matchbox 20, everclear concert at esa b/c i was in japan!!!
How many countries I've been to: us, canada, england, japan ...
Most romantic thing that's ever happened to me: kssing in the rain, being told i was loved (can that be categorized as most scary too?) ... yeah, nothing super-special-different, i know
Name a movie that you've cried at: too many of those ... i'll go for buttefly lovers *sniffles and grabs tissues*
Scariest Thing You've Ever Done: riding the loch ness at busch gardens (you have no idea how terrified i am of roller coasters!!), trying to do bad things to myself
What is the worst sickness you ever had? bronchitis that turned into a severe stomach thing when they gave me the wrong freakin' prescription!
What is the worst thing you did that got you grounded? disagreeing w/ my dad
What's the latest you've ever stayed out? probably 4:30 am prom night last year
Are the last 2 items related? definitely not
What's your oldest memory that is still vivid to you? me climbing on my mom in a rocking chair and having it fall over ... probably coz it was so scary and my mom was bleeding (don't remember how old i was) ... either that or when i was like 4 or 5 and this girl and i were jumping on a rock that was like 2 feet away from a cliff and our parents had told us not to do it, but we were anyway, and i fell off and almost rolled off the edge (yeah, definitely wouldn't be here today if that had been the case) and i hit my head and it was gushing blood (yuck) ... i've still got the scar
What was the best gift ever given to you? my security blanket that i've had for forever (possibly the most sentimental value) or the music box that i got from my grandparents as a girl's day gift when i was really young
When was your worst school picture taken? if not my 6th/7th grade ones (please do *not* go look me up in your yearbooks), my one this year (oh dear god, i didn't think it was possible to look so bad ... )
Who was your first crush? ryan whose last name i can't for the life of me remember at the moment ...


RIGHT NOW KIND OF QUESTIONS
How are you today? tired, tired, tired, overwhelming feeling of absolute terror and guilt for not doing anything that i need to do this weekend
How's the weather right now? dark and dry
In And Around The CD Player: creed, lifehouse, simon and garfunkel, weezer
Last person you talked to? rene, when she called me to harass me about forgetting to check in for the night
Who is right next to you? a stack of books higher than my head
What color are your pants? khaki
What is the last thing you said? "good night" to rene
What kind of Clothes do you sleep in: cami and underwear
What mood are you in right now? horribly guilty for not doing my homework and abject terror at the fact that it's monday already
What song are you listening to right now? the clock
What time is it? 12:21 ooh, palindrome (yeah, i'm tired)
What was the last thing you ate? um ... corn, unless you count this piece of gum i'm chewing on and which i do *not* plan on swallowing
When was the last time you showered? 10am this (wait, yesterday) morning
What did you do last night? danced until i couldn't stand on my feet anymore


THE FUTURE
Do you think you will ever be famous? doubt it, and don't really mind
Future Goals: be successful, fall in love
What are 2 things you want to do before you finish high school? just 2? 1) be completely prepared for a cello lesson (ain't never gonna happen) and 2) grow 6 inches (ahahahahahahaha)
What will your first son's name be? children??
First daughter? see above
What You Want To Be: satisfied
When you're 18, will you buy a pack of smokes because you can? no, but you can bet i'll go barhopping even if i can't drink
Where do you want to go on your honeymoon? if i could go anywhere i'd want to go to italy, but i don't think it'd really matter *if* i were to get married and if i were to get married for all the right reasons
Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? hahaha, don't get me started on that ... i can go on for days and still not come to a definite conclusion. i'll tell you when i've met him


RANDOMNESS
Do you have a lava lamp? noo ... but i really want one for my dorm room!!
Do you have a "secret box"? um ... well, i've got like 20 boxes full of my personal stuff but it's not really like things that i would never show anyone ...
How do you eat an Oreo? twist, eat cream, nibble on cookie part last
How would you spend a million dollars: oh dear god shoes and underwear!! ... then the miata that i always wanted, and invest whatever's left over
If you could change your name, what would it be? um ... i don't really know, i kinda like my name since no one else has it
If you were a ceral, which one would you be? what kind of question is this? probably honey nut cheerios though ... cute, sweet, and not very memorable
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? i'd be one of those cool crayons that are made out of like a hundred different colors all just kinda melted together
What I'm Addicted to: anime, nestea (the only sweet tea i'll *ever* drink)
What I could never live without: well, the basics--oxygen and such, but what i'd really not want to live w/out?


COMPUTER STUFF
Do you save emails? yeah
How many buddies do you have on your list right now? 102
What is your desk made of? wood


HAVE YOU EVER
Been in a car accident?: too many to count ... 5 major ones that i can recall
Been on Stage?: of course
Broken a bone? collarbone
Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: oh dear lord, please kill me if i ever try to do something like that
Eaten Sushi?: yeah, whaddya say we go for the rolls, not the raw fish stuff
Had cosmetic surgery? probably would help, wouldn't it?
Hiked a Mountain?: bunch of times ... most recently that mountain in japan my sister and i climbed (woot! that was fun!)
Made a Lenten sacrifice? possibly w/out knowing it ... wait, that wouldn't be a sacrifice would it? so no, i haven't
Made homemade cookies?: allll the time ... ugh, i think my family considers me "the cookie lady" or something, but it comes in handy for when i go over to lin's
Moved? 4 times, 5 if you count coming to school
Seen the White House?: yep
Skinny dipped? hahahaha, of course, haven't you?
Watched the Smurfs?: maybe twice?
Been called a Smurf?: not that i know of ...
Witnessed a crime? does that count the ones you've committed?


DO YOU...
do drugs? nope
drink? *looks around* anyone know how to make a mai tai?
smoke? nasty ... *coughs at all the nasty artsy smokers*
currently like/love someone? of course, doesn't everyone?
have lots of friends? enough
Like jewelry?: ear rings, rings, anklets, necklaces, bracelets, toe rings ...
Like to dance? if i'm feeling up to it, i love to
Like to take walks in the rain? depends on the situation, or who's there, and what kind of rain it is


DO YOU BELIEVE IN
God? nope
Heaven? see above
Luck? good and bad


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT
the Florida re-count? ugh, bad, but it's over now, and there's not much to be done for it anymore ...

FAVOURITES
Actor/Actress: robert deniro, marlon brando, tom hanks, meg ryan, cameron diaz, gwenyth paltrow, and then there are my hotties ... takeshi kaneshiro, sean biggerstaff, daniel radcliff, ewan macgregor, you know
Alcoholic Beverage: bacardi cocktail over here please!
Animal: big cats
Animated movie? anastasia, fantasia, who framed roger rabbit *lol*
Book: hm ... memoirs of a geisha (i can't believe she's suing!!) and divine secrets of the ya ya sisterhood (have you read it yet lin lin? we need to go see the movie when it comes out!)
Book that you were required to read for school? night
Candy: lemon heads, sour skittles, sourpatch kids, reese's pieces, those white choclate bites that are made by hershey's
CD? one of the ones i burned ...
Color: dark purple, stormy and royal
Concert: aerosmith at walnut creek i think
Country singer/artist? *holds head and cries* i haaate country ... wait, i like the dixie chicks
Day: saturday
Disney character: chip from beauty and the beast (he's so adorable!!)
Do I believe in aliens?: i don't know, do you?
Drink? iced mocha
Flower: lilies
Food: friend dumplings (the good kind!) and ice cream (no, not together)
Girl's perfume? davidoff's cool water for women
Holiday: new years (the money the presents the food!!)
How much $$$ I have in my pocket: none, i'm a poor poor student ... sort of
Ice cream: mint chocolate, of course!
Kind of m & m? crunchy
Least Fave Food: rhubarb, that rubbery stuff that i'm sure has a name in english, but i don't care enough to look it up, which makes me want to hurl everytime i chew on it, fishcakes ... and the list goes on ...
Magazine: newsweek, the new yorker, national geographic, my sister's cosmogirl if i'm in the bathtub w/ nothing else to read
Men's cologne? davidoff's cool water for men
Movies: oh wow ... too many
Month(s): july, august, september
Music: classical, some pop, alternative, rock, some heavy metal
Pair of Jeans: my dark blue low rise paris blues jeans, or the ones that are so old they've got rips almost all the way around the top of the leg and enough holes to see more skin than not (what? they're comfortable! i'm not throwing them away)
Phobias: spiders, especially big ones *shudders*
Quote: ...
Quote from a movie: see above
Restaurant: maccaroni grill
Salad dressing: honey dijon
Sesame Street Character: ernie or grover!
Shoes: i would sell my soul for a pair of really nice shoes ... i'd have to say i love my candies the most at the moment ... could change any day though, just wait (or don't)
Socks: the cute ones i got in japan
Song That Couldn't Be Improved Upon: i'll go w/ leigh on extreme's "more than words" and i like "hey" by the suicide machines, but i'm not so sure that it couldn't be improved upon ... most things can
Sport(s): soccer
Sport to watch: college basketball
Store: victoria's secret or the body shop
Subject: history or science (ugh i am such a geek!)
Thing To Do In The Fall: sit outside and read a good book
Thing To Do In The Summer: the beach, of course! it wins hands down every time!
Thing To Do In The Winter: skiing even though i suck at it, sitting in a hot tub in the dark when it's snowing
Toothpaste: what the hell kinda questiong is this?
TV Show: dark angel (michael weatherly is hot!!), the x-files (ditto for dd), law and order, will and grace/friends (cute and entertaining)
TV show that was made before you were born? wow, now there are too many of those because most of them were really good
Vacationing Spot: ugh, we had to write a thesis statement on this in history!
Video Game: um ... what's your cool new video game called, joseph?
Website: http://tigress4.blogspot.com

EITHER/OR
AC or Windows Down: windows down w/ stereo turned alllll the way up in my dream car ... ac in my parents' cars
Backstreet Boys or N*Sync? ugh, bsb have got to be the lesser of 2 evils ... i can't believe i used to love them!
Baths or showers? baths (ohh, i go home just to take bubble baths!!)
Bold or Italics? bolds i think
Bridges or Tunnels: bridges, tunnels are scary
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla in ice cream, chocolate in everything else
Cold or Hot: hot, of course, even if there is the advantage to being able to put more on when you're cold and you can't just keep taking stuff off when you're hot (contrary to popular opinion, it's *not* very common to go skinny dipping in an ice bath, so don't hold your breath)
Colorful or Dull? are we talking about me here? or what i like? i'd say i like "dull" (pastel, pale) looks better, although i'm heading over to the brighter side now that it's spring ...
Croutons or Bacon Bits: croutons all the way!!
Half full or half empty? I look on the bright side whenever possible.
Hugs or Kisses? hugs are sweet, kisses are fun, hugs are more for friendship and comfort, kisses are more for passion ... how about a little (or a lot) of both?
Leno or Letterman? hm ... get back to me on that one, i haven't watched either in a loong time
Loud or Shy: depends ... loud when you get me going, but i can definitely be shy too
Night or day? night and day are both good, but for different reasons altogether. day is fun, reminds me of the beach, hanging out outside, doing things as a group and w/ nothing to hide ... night rocks because it's secretive, seems daring, makes it all the more exciting/interesting/fun
On the phone or in person? depends on the situation ... phone's definitely not a problem for me although in person is usually much better
One pillow or two? 4
Pools or hot tubs? hot tubs when it's snowing outside, although if i stay in the hot tub too long i get rather dizzy
Rose or Daisy: yellow roses or blue tea roses are wonderful, but daisies are more my style
Scary or happy movies? it all depends ... usually comedies, although they have to be good (why isn't gut-wrenchingly teary an option??)
Skydiving or Bungee Jumping: *stomach lurches* neither, please
Spring or Fall: fall, of course. cool crisp breezy ... gorgeous
Subway or McDonald's? subway unless i'm craving those hot salty crunchy fries from mickey d's!
Rain or Snow: snowsnowsnowsnow!!!
TV or radio? tv b/c it can occupy you completely whereas it's hard for me to just sit there and listen to the radio w/out doing anything else
TV or reading? reading, b/c although both give me headaches, reading's usually more worth it
Wool or Cotton: cotton, none of that itchy stuff


WORD ASSOCIATION
Blue: claritin
Book: langoliers
Cloud: pictures
Cry: tissues
Happy: teddy bears
Hay: stables
Merry: christmas
Paper: rice
Rock: paper scissors
Wet: rain

Just to put everybody in the Christmas spirit...

Indeed.

Please, angst is not special enough to be capitalized unless it is at the start of a sentence or in an acronym or something.

echonymph7: Dear God, I"m so bored
Lwalton106: http://aqueouspope.cjb.net
echonymph7: ...
echonymph7: LEIGH
Lwalton106: yes?
Lwalton106: sorry, was that my cue to begin cybersex?

Hahahahahhah.

Whoo.

Gotta love that Siavash.

Linda, you won't ever have to change that imood indicator, will you?

This little tidbit heard in the hallway of our lovely school: "How you gonna use "shit" and "Lord" in the same sentence?"

My answer? Very carefully.

And something else! I finished my art project (you know, the one of the dancers I have been working on forever) and so here it is. However, since this link seems to be being a bitch: http://luolian.bravepages.com/dance.jpg

First off: I passed my ballet exam! That means that I get to move up to the next level, which, for me at least, puts me as high as one can go. This is a *very* good thing, especially since I seem to be the only person in my class who moved up. I do feel bad for them, seeing as I know how hard a couple of them worked, but I can’t help but feel oh-so-happy for me! You should be happy for me too!

Also, it's bring-a-friend-to-dance week, and guess what we had today? Boys!!!!!! Not just these guys, but straight guys that dance in general are seriously the hottest guys on the planet. *swoon* Not only that, but they are just...so...cool. And really, these guys could get any girl that dances and dancers tend to be an attractive segment of the female population (no, I'm referring to myself here; y'all know I have no self esteem). I swear, if more guys understood this concept, more would dance. And the guys that came today were awesome! While lacking in the technical training aspect, they could do hip hop, house, break dancing, etc. They were so cool!

So if anybody wants to come to class with me on Thursday...

wow.

No posts in 24 hours? For shame...

Hell, I've got an English project due tomorrow and I'm posting.

Of course, my online activity is directly proportional to the presence of a major assignment due the next day... Hmm...

Um... just what the FUCK is that?!?

An oral sex donation link on the side bar of our blog...???

Just what the FUCK is that?!?


And now for something completely different: Can we add an imood thing like on Leigh's blog, one for everyone? I think that would be cool.

Ok, it's official- I'm am magical. How do I know this? Well, I put my foot through a glass door without a single scrape. Yes, I repeat: I put my foot through a glass door without a single scrape. How did I pull off this magical feat (haha, feet)? Well, I was bringing in my dinner dishes from outside and I had my hands full, so instead of putting my plate and stuff down and then shutting the door, I just pushed the door shut with my foot. And while I did succeed in closing the door, I also managed to send my foot through the bottom left panel of the French door. So yay... I'm magical. Too bad I couldn't get the glass shards to clean themselves up...

Oh and Peter, Kirsten Dunst was also featured in a very recent Vanity Fair, but you can't have my copy. Sorry. Also, maybe I'm just a weirdo, but I wish I could have been there for your singing.

so i finally went to see spiderman today ... don't flame me *too* terribly, but i didn't think it was that great. the plot was good and i loved the action, but the only romantic scenes i liked in that whole movie that i didn't find cheesy and just *weird* were a) when mj kisses spiderman and he's upside down ... that was just freakin' adorable, i loved it and b) when peter's telling mj what he "told spiderman" when he asked him about mj, coz that was the sweetest thing ever too. but other than that, i didn't think they were all that well scripted and it some of the stuff they said and some of the plots were things that were terribly overused. i mean, character dating best friend's love of like a lifetime? how many times has that one been pulled? and i really didn't like the end. it left it waaay too open for a sequel.
oh, and peter, you're the one w/ the kirsten dunst obsession right? go buy the june issue of seventeen and rip out all the pictures of her. she was the featured actress of the month. or you could just have mine, i guess, it's not like i need it *lol*
anyway, i'm tired, my knee hurts and is growing a second lump on it (omg, you'll just have to ask me about how i'm the biggest klutz alive! because i don't really feel like explaining it) and i'm pissed as hell, but oh well. i'm going to try to make the voices in my head shut up so i can go to bed. night all.

Yeah, I agree that the test was not too bad. My one question is just what the crap are the Maryland Toleration Acts? They asked two questions about the thing and I have not idea what they are. The thing I liked was that if you had an idea of what the item in question was *about*, it generally got you the answer. Just being able to place it in period and context was at least 75% of the answer.

I am throughly greatful its all over though. My mom let me skip and I went home to sleep... and I dreamed I still has essays to finish but was napping through the test. Grrr...

Siavash, the teachers do have a list to see if you are taking the exam or not, so don't think you are so slick. But yeah, I realize that they probably won't check.

I have a whole weekend of batiking ahead of me, but this is actually a good thing because it should be fairly relaxing. I'm under no pressure to finish it because I still have a week and a half; that's a long time for a final project. So if anyone wants to save me from my confinement, just call me and we'll do something.

I can't allow that post from Siavash to be on top. So I'm posting.

APUSH is over. yaaaaaaaaaaay.

Uh..... I don't think I should really be expected to be coherent at this point, so I ain't gonna.

Peace.

I know I'm pointing out the obvious, but the school board's ruling has no effect on any of us and it never will. Between our parents and the internet, everyone here already knows or knows how to find out anything that could possibly be covered in a sex-ed class. Even when (or if) we have kids, we will all be responsible parents who will tell our kids what they need to know. And as bad as it sounds, the plight of the ill-informed "redneck" just isn't calling to me. Basically, I don't care enough about the stupid to fight with y'all about it. But, I do agree with Lin and all of the people who, well, also agree with her.

omg, omg, omg *screams and rips hair out* i think i'm going to cry. why???? ugggh, ok, so i ranted and ranted for like an hour about how sex-ed is nothing like balancing your checkbook or cooking or pumping gas (which, by the way, most schools do have courses offered for all three ... maybe not pumping gas, but you get my drift), and nooo, it got freakin' deleted!!! ok, ok *breathes, or attempts to anyway* .... omg, omg, i think i'm going to have to go cry now... rant later.

Something tells meh i'll be a more active member here once the conversation dies down some e.e;;;;

seeing as i agree all too well with lin and leigh, i won't beat the already dead horse into an unrecognizable pulp. i was going to post something earlier, but passing out gained precedence and when i finally got back around to checking on the blog again, leigh had already beaten me to it. damn you, leigh =) oh well, i'll wait for the flaming replies that i know are forthcoming, and have a field day with those. i think this is too much fun to possibly be healthy ...

Well, somebody's feeling contradictory today.

:)

Admittedly (and disappointingly), Pete, your color thingie was rather inaccurate. At least, as far as I know you. Still, something like "wearing your heart on your sleeve" is something one would notice, and it's clear that your sleeve is pretty unhearted.

But I must disagree with you strenuously on the sex ed issue. Sure, the parents' position isn't hard to understand: sex is bad (and possibly deadly), and if we entrust the teaching of it to the schools, not only are we failing in our duty as parents by surrendering this responsibility to the government, but they'll be taught some politically-correct gay-is-okay premarital-sex-is-okay abortion-is-okay leftist mumbo jumbo. A slight exaggeration, but honestly, a lot of this stuff is all smushed together in some people's minds. And, of course, there's the religion issue.

Pete, I think you went a little too far with "I don't feel it's right for you to criticize them . . . Any contradiction between what a child knows of religion and of their parents, and what they are taught in schools, cannot end well." To address the first part: Anti-sex-ed lobbyists have the right to hold whatever views they wish. Indeed, we all do. Still, I think everyone can agree that there are certain viewpoints that we shouldn't let air unopposed. If an opinion is misinformed, inaccurate, offensive, and likely harmful to others' health (the typical abstinence-only education plan is all of these), then its holders have the right to hold it, but its hearers have a moral obligation to object.

As for the second part (parental/school conflicts), you're again reaching. Schools have no obligation to ensure that they never contradict the teachings of parents or religions. Sure, a reasonable degree of sensitivity is encouraged, but if you're a member of the religion that requires you to dress like the Michelin Tire Man [see here], your textbooks can still contain pictures of un-costumed people. If your parents teach you that evolution is a bunch of hooey and that God created everything exactly as it is, your Biology teacher can still demonstrate and teach evolutionary theory. Sure, all these contradictions will probably cause some cognitive dissonance, but that's one of the important skills that you should learn in school: sorting out and judging contradictory opinions. If not in school, when will you learn to do this?

Besides, if you can't understand the message "sex is a potentially very harmful act. Wearing a condom can somewhat decrease this risk" and perceive it as "undermining" itself, then you'll probably have some trouble later on anyway, so you might as well learn to use a condom.

And that's all I can type for now; it's late. For AP week, it's late.

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

You are totally dissatisfied with your present situation. Matters are not going right for you and you are seeking a means of escape. Your mental state of mind necessitates that you need to change your thinking patterns. Remember, if one particular modus operandi doesn't seem to work, then try something different.

It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

I was actually going to write a long entry about this exact thing.


Although, in the interest of honesty, a lot of the things in Lauren's description matched me pretty well, so it was vaguely reminiscent of that horoscope "You present a nice face to the world, but there's something uncomfortable beneath. I see a conflict approaching. Now might be a time to try new things" vagueness that works for everybody. Still, some parts of hers don't fit me, I think, and I still think this thing is remarkably accurate.

At any rate, reading a description like this, however wildly inaccurate, makes you think about how it applies to you. It highlights certain parts of yourself, parts that you may not have been paying attention to. And discovering more of yourself is always good.

So thanks for the link, Lauren.

Because we're all masochists at heart. (I assume you are talking about AP exams, yes?)

AP Hints for Students

Why, why must we go through this?

Damn, Linda; I thought I was the only one with a horrible hankerin’ for the males on this blog...

You wanna see something scary? This is scary. It's that thing where you pick 8 colors in the order that suits you best and it tells you about yourself. This is what it came up with for me, and I have to say it's pretty accurate, especially at this point in my life (that would be, one in which I'm not taking my Prozac):

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognize the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

Everything seems to have gone wrong and the situation at this time is such that you are not quite sure which way to turn. So it would appear that you are 'holding back', re-consolidating your position and relinquishing all fun and games for the time being.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You are greatly impressed by individuality and have interest in people who have outstanding qualities. You try to imitate those people that you admire and their characteristics, hoping that you will be able to display similar qualities in your own personality.

This is so me. It's frightening because, well, it says nothing good about me, yet nails a great many of my personality problems with uncanny ease. Let's take the last two sentences in the second to last paragraph. Hell, let's look at that whole paragraph. This plays into my "Thou shalt not inflict yourself on others" philosophy. That is, one has very few people in life that they are allowed to dump themselves on. Inflicting yourself on someone else is defined as the following: making others adopt your problems as if they were their own, making others feel obligated to spend time with you even though they would rather not, fishing for compliments and expecting others to check up on you, think about you in their free time or otherwise include you in their life. You can always turn to your family because that is just how it is (they're family!), but otherwise it's a privilege you have to earn. It is just the inherent right of others to choose not to include you in their life. Sorry. You slowly earn this right by making friends and bonding with others outside your family circle and as an individual relationship grows closer, you gain more of a right do you have to inflict yourself on that person.

That would be, the amount of yourself you may inflict on others is directly proportional to how close y'all's bond is.

This is always how I have felt. I expect strangers and classmates I don't know to keep to themselves and it bothers me when they don't and I try to return the favor. I try to support my friends as much as I can, but try to be cautious about making sure I'm not overstepping my boundaries. This is where my fear of rejecting comes from. I don't have the inherent belief that I am the greatest and I think people have the right to reject me; the combination of these two ideas is that it seems reasonable that I could be rejected at any time for almost any reason.

I want people to like me, but I just can't force them to. Hell, I can't even make them feel bad about it without being a bitch.

And so this is why I have decided I am not going to pursue Steve anymore. I don't want to inflict myself on him and sense I am 99.9% sure he doesn't feel the same way about me, I'm not going to push it. It's not my right to make him deal with how I feel about him. To do so would not only put him in an uncomfortable position, but would damage our friendship, which I am grateful for every day.

I could make it a win/lose situation if I let it go (yeah, I would be the loser here and Steve no worse for the wear) or a lose/lose situation if I say anything and neither of us would get anything out of it. I am totally screwed either way and since I am not a spiteful person, I'm not going to involve Steve if I don't have to.

And that's all I have to say about that.

ugggh, screw ethernet for crashing like every ten minutes!!!

hey ling, if you had the choice, wouldn't you hang out with the hot guy? i mean you saw the pictures! come on now! =)

can i one up you both?? i think this is a "who's the most pitiful" contest ... but yeah, here goes: i think i've "re-liked" just about every guy i've ever had any semblance of a relationship w/. sick, yes, i know. but i think it's my inherent greediness and my need to possess anything/anyone i don't have, and to subject them to my mood swings and my freakiness and still have them stick around and adore me. screwed up? omg, that doesn't even *begin* to describe it, but oh well right? *shrugs* it's bad enough having to see one of my exes *every single freaking day* ... yeah, bad, bad, we will *not* go down that road ...

Here's some calm and happy music for everyone and their superfluous stress:

Gabriel

It's not really an mp3, but I figured out somehow to save it on my comp rather then just saving the link. I dunno... it was strange.

Leigh, honestly, I saw the puppy and started crying. That poor, poor little puppy! Who did such a mean thing to that cute, cute little puppy? ...Why, Linda! How could you have?! *tear*

Lin, as for your irritation with Mr. Sears, well... no comment.

Speaking of ex-boyfriends, I actually had a normal, non-emotional conversation with Tomás yesterday. It was a bit slow, as we still had some trouble talking to the other, but it wasn't *bad*. I'm still blocking him on AIM because he always wants to talk and we have nothing to say, so I feel bad about it, but it reduces my stress that way. I don't know, maybe that's still a mean thing to do... Besides, he can find me on MSN if I choose to be on.

I hope he doesn't find this blog, but if he does, whatever.

heeey, wasn't i supposed to be admin too?? urgh, oh well, i suppose if i'm not then you can't shove off any template responsibilities on me now can you? go ask leigh if you've got problems w/ the evil-whore blogger-tags ... *mwahahaha*
btw, leigh, the puppy is adorable

Well fer Chissakes, Linda, it's no good to set it to show only posts from that day! If you wanna limit 'im, limit 'im at like 20 or something.

If you make me an admin again, I promise not to screw with the template...

Please?

omg, i can't believe this ... i've got a random case of insomnia and i'm doing a pre-cal lab for *fun* ... i think i'm broken. someone help me, please??

something tells meh imma be confused for a good part of this giant blog O.o *is so confused already* oh well :-= so yeah i gotta go learn some german then go to bed *is exhausted from the weekend...buybai all!

lol, i almost hope it'll taper off ... i log on to see that like 30 different posts are up and i'm like holding my head trying not to cry. but on the bright side, it's definitely keeping me entertained ... i'm back at school, so i'll have plenty of free time to whine. which reminds me, i've got tons of hw due tomorrow at 8am that i should *probably* start on ...

I get the feeling Blogspot's gonna need to buy a new server to handle us... :)

MR did *not* bomb, especially if you take into account the fact that it's an Aussie film and did better there then it did here. Sure, it made $60 million domestically, but that's only in America and DVD sales have actually surpassed that amount. So suck it.

And BTW, Linda, you are supposed to defend Truth, Beauty, Freedom, and Love always, not any of this "win/lose situation" shit. The winners win, always and the only people losing here suck ass.

*chokes*
Peter! Moulin Rouge did *not* fail. The thing with MR is that you either love it or you hate it. I've seen critics put it as the best movie of the year and as the worst, but I'm sure those people who thought it was the worst are horrible, stupid, boring, mean and ugly beings and should be shot. It's not like it's just a chick flick; both my dad and bro loved it, along with Josh (Hostetter) and Mr. Patnaud. And Leigh, it may not be the best at 3 in the morning, but watch it from the beginning at give it another chance. You just can't come in at the tango scene and expect it to make any sense.

Also, I am disappointed in everyone for misspelling/mispunctuating "Spider-Man." Especially you, Peter. You're a guy.

ewan macgregor???? *passes out* and geez, remus makes me hyperventilate as it is, and that's only from my mental image of him. it's a good thing they're getting someone abso-freakin-lutely gorgeous to play him, but i think i'm going to have a hard time breathing throughout that movie ... and peter, your realize that no matter how much you tell me that i'm a fangirl, i'm not going to stop this right? and moulin rouge rocks!! so yeah, that's about all ... i gotta go eat and then go back to winston =p later all.

No way!! Ewan McGregor...in Harry Potter?!? *faints*

And yes, you so can come! Assuming it happens, of course.

Or the Sling of Keeze...
The hills are alive... with the sound of music

Ok, I have an idea, and while I admit it's one that probably won't work, let's pretend it will.

Wednesday- APUSH study group after school at someone's house, a library, bookstore, whatever

Thursday- same thing

Friday- Moulin Rouge party at my house!!

Ok, so I threw that last part in for the hell of it, but seriously, I like the idea of a study group... Only I don't give a crap about accommodating all y'all Cary people, so maybe I should take it up with the people that live near me. *makes mental note*

Well, I thought I knew, but seeing how you treated Leigh just then... well, it just raises some questions.

Which resident man-slut?

Robot robot robot!

The links look stupid in the other one, and all that DHTML makes my browser peevish.

Re: Lauren's post, paragraph by paragraph.

In the comic, he sews it himself, 'cause he's just that kind of pansy.

No, no, and no she doesn't. And that's all I have to say about that.

Agreed.

PS. As I stated in my own blog, I found the plot rather predictable but almost everything else very well done.

note: I changed it to this cheery template because somebody deleted the entire template, which also rendered the last few posts unviewable.

If you hate it, I or someone else can change it later.

My question is, where did Spiderman get his cool costume? I mean, one second he's got his crappy-ass fan boy-style get up, then he looks at the costume design again, then he's got his hella cool new suit. Where did that come from? Well, I guess there are many, many instances where the story doesn't really add up. I can only imagine Harry discovering that his dad is not only dead, but got bludgeoned in the balls. That's a classic right there.

As for Kirsten Dunst, well, let's just say she needs a bra. And a skirt that doesn't have a 6 inch slit in the front. And she needs to not wear coats that are longer then the aforementioned skirts. And that's all I have to say about that.

To her credit, the saddest part of the movie was the last scene, but it's not so bad when you know that there is going to be a sequel.

Hey everybody! friday was prom! that was so much fun =) my hottie from atlanta came up of course =) Rory was a ton of fun! and i have a couple of pictures if anyone wants to see =) i've had a pretty busy weekend, thursday rory came up friday was prom then we all spent the night at dara's then yesterday we went to see spider man eat sushi and go to cup a joe =) sorry i was too lazeh to put in commas x.x sorreh bout that! but now the weekend has faded and i have to practice my clarinet and study my german poem x.x blarg! oh well *sigh* next friday is the band trip =D

*tear*
The sheer emotion of joining this blog has just completely overwhelmed me... I'm speechless...

Yeah right. As if I ever am at a loss for words. Maybe it won't be too intelligent, but I always seem find something to say.

I have just spent all freakin' morning studying for that damn APUSH exam, so I'm going to take a break and bestow some thoughts on you. Last night I saw Spider-man with Steve and his sister and I think I speak for all of us when I say that it was a lot of fun. The movie was a blast, Tobey Maguire was looking hot and I found out Steve talks through movies almost as much as I do (which is a good thing). Steve's sis looks just like him and makes all these Steve-esque facial expressions... it's quite fascinating. And for those of you wondering if I'm leaving something unsaid, well, maybe I am. Forgive me for having some hesitations about being a little *too* honest here. Maybe they'll subside after a few posts. And if you don't know what I'm talking about well... just ask me in private and maybe I'll tell you. Maybe.

I'm starting to stress about all this end-of-year crap already. Between AP exams, regular exams, finishing my art projects, dance and everything else I have to worry about, I am beginning to feel the onset of hysteria. Like this morning, I woke up, came downstairs and things just started bothering me. My sister was yelling at me about leaving the milk out last night, my mom was trying to get me to admit to leaving a mirror out (which I didn't), my dad was reading the comics when I wanted them, my sister was sitting in my sit in the kitchen and I couldn't get the fan to turn off in the living room. In reality, all of these things are stupid and mean nothing, but I got so irritated I thought I was going to start pounding someone, most likely my sister. I had just woken up and already I was on edge. I've chilled out now.

I guess there are so many things in my life that are on the verge of being decided right now, so I'm being too sensitive to everything. But, hey, it'll all work out. Well, it probably won't *all* work out, but I'll get through it alive. *crosses fingers*

So, what I am saying, more or less, is that I want a massage, a hot guy to make out with (who was that guy who's a good kisser, Linda?) and a tub of Betty Crocker icing. Is that just too much to ask for? Of course not! ; )

woot!! group blog! ever so exciting, and glad that it actually works this time. so who's up on this thing now?? i see lin and leigh ... come on everyone, say hi or something! i'll whine more when i get back to school ^_^

Well, here you go.

note from ling: this would be the teachers-looking-at-students'-underwear thing...

Consarn it, Linda, if you're gonna be the only one with admin privileges, then at least edit the template to take out the "this would be a good place to put links" and such. The alternative being, of course, to let somebody else admin too.

Or, I could just shut up and blog something.